that I’m talking to YOU. Not the both of you, not for you to say “us” for her, BUT ONLY YOU. Stop talking for her. Stop defending her with YOUR words. Just stop. This isn’t your battle to fight no matter what other reasons and excuses that you have for me. It seems like I hurt you more than I hurt her which is completely stupid. You’re oblivious to everything, I swear. I will forever be sorry for her, not for you. I did NOTHING wrong to YOU so just stfu.
I don’t want to hurt you because I put myself in your position and I would be heartbroken. We may not be that close, but I still consider you a dear friend. I don’t want you to hate me, because honestly, if it happened to me, I’d hate the girl too. I care about you, but my heart tells me not to stop.
Honestly I hate posting stuff up on my tumblr about my life and how I feel cus people I know and that I might probably be talking about follows my blog.. But screw it. I feel like shaat.
So I’ve recently figured out that I hate most of my friends. HAHA. My life was so simple back then. Then I screw up my freshmen year, people hate me, blah blah blah.. Sophomore year gets way better. People are back respecting me, I gain more trustworthy friends, I stay out of every drama possible.. It was good. AND NOW I feel like everyone is all up in my face about everything. I lost both of one of my closest girl and guy friend, and then I feel like my world went upside down. Everything became weird and different.. I started hanging out with people that I usually wouldn’t.. But.. I liked it. I got close with my old friends again, the ones that WERE ALWAYS THERE FOR ME FROM THE START, but were secretly waiting for me to fall so that they could pick me up. My real friends. The ones I neglected, but were still willing to wait for me. The ones that I truly don’t deserve.